The pursuit of happiness
Feelings and emotions. It seems that they are never over, they never stop and even when you
start being able to detach, an emotion of guilt covers you making you feel like you are not normal.
I run my day every day hoping for a perfect feeling... and I get those moments sporadically, when I'm allowed to just appreciate my surroundings, otherwise I am just overwhelmed with all this energy inside of me wanting to get out.
And it usually goes out in frustration, in complaining in feeling with time and the world over my shoulders. And then I go out thinking is all me, that I am the only one with a hectic life and all these things that run through my head, all my little or big obstacles.
The truth is that I've overcome some of the greatest judges in my life... and as I conquered the big ones I went on thinking I was done, not paying attention to the little ones, the mundane ones. And I finally understand that as long as I continue pursuing happiness and expecting for
perfection, for exactness, wishing for time, wishing for help, wishing .... the furthest away I go.
Today I feel connected through the energy that guides my emotions with the energy that flows through the world. I saw my emotions and feelings as just waves of an influx of energy... I saw me as just a mere artifact. Just like trees flow air, we are instruments in flowing energy.
Today I thought: maybe I have no problems at all... maybe I'm just processing energy. They are not real, only love is real for all is love trying to be expressed. I am not even human, I am a tree.... I dig deep looking for home because I need to lay my roots and I continue to want more because I want to grow high... it's unconscious , it's coded in our DNA, to be able to process the
energy from down up and help it recycle.... we are not the top of the chain, we are a filter. Let's
shed our egos that we are the top race of this world and do our job, to learn from our grandparents the trees to have roots that interconnect the whole world, to provide shelter and shade... to be a safe place during the dark, to be part of the cycle of life.
Hover over me lord, Goddess, allow me to be the better filter, allow me to detach from my circumstances and do my job to process. A tree never gives out CO2 , help me give love 100% of the time, shed me from my expectations of love ... remind me that love hides in the dark as well as in the light. I am a God when I am IN Love
