I am here

7/15/11

I am here standing in my two feet
Breathing fire and exhaling life,
Burning in flames ready to come back.

Taking some peace
Waiting to take the world by surprise.

It might be an eternity
But it also feels like a glimpse
How many times have I been awake?
Oh! How many more I’m missing now?

No matter what else
I’m here, not waiting, not wanting
Just making and being here
Showing the light, walking it too
Come on let’s take a ride to the moon.

Alma de Vida

Te guías de las cosas que te guian;
Cuando vas del aire, miras y te acercas
a la vida que dejaste en un lugar de allá;
Y piensas que te miran al pasar
Brillante como el sol.

Fascinada por el mundo que se va,
Dejando tu escencia por todo lo que tus manos tocan;
Caminando un instante, soñando después,
Viniste de un angel y te qudaste a bailar
Una danza de amor

Eres el alma, eres la música y el aire
Dando vida, siendo vida
Tú, eres una estrella.

In celebration of my quarter of a century

August 21 at 10:07pm

I don't remember for how long I have been searching for meaning in my life. I do not remember how many times I have looked at the night sky searching for an answer for a question I do not know.

The time has gone like water runs through an insignificant leak. It goes drop by drop, seemingly worthless to even be noticed. But every drop falls and doesn't come back, the water that flows through that leak cannot be used again, just like the seconds of my life, the ones that run through without me even saying good bye.

Today I searched again, and realized one very important thing. I thought about why if we were to find out that we are close to die we would be more likely to appreciate life, and every little thing about it, we would find meaning even in despair and in a way we would start to live.

And then I realized that the moment we give up eternal existence to be born we are sentenced to die. Diagnosed with humanity we come to dream and admire the night sky. Does this explain why babies are the angels of this earth? Because they still remember the sentence of death? By living long we forget that this life is just a second before we have to go. How can we not forget about the fragility of life and the importance of experience?

The way I understand it today is that if we gave up eternal existence for a chance to live a couple of tens of years under the sun, this might be a great place to be, the price might be way better than the sacrifice, let's not forget about that.

Viridiana

Writer's Block

Yesterday June 3rd I was not able to write, I did not have something to say, however thanks to my lovely husband I did find something that inspired me and that is exactly how I feel and how I want to feel every day.

I do not see it as a day without writing, I see it as a day where I needed some inspiration.

The name of the piece is "PROMISE TO YOURSELF" and goes like this:

To be so strong that nothing can disturb your peace of mind.
To talk health, happiness and prosperity to every person you meet.
To make all your friends feel that there is something in them.
To look on the sunny side of everything and make your optimism come true.
To think only of the best, to work only for the best, and to expect only the best.
To be just as enthusiastic about success of others as you are about your own.
To forget the mistakes of the past and press on to the greater achievements of the future.
To wear a cheerful countenance at all times and to have a smile ready for every living creature you meet.
To give so much time to the improvement of yourself that you have no time to criticize others.
To be too large for worry, too noble for anger, too strong for fear, and to happy to permit the presence of trouble.
To think well of yourself and to proclaim this fact to the world - no in loud words, but in great deeds.
To live in the faith that the world is on your side so long as you are true to the best that is in you.
~~~ Christian D. Larson~~

Nothing to say

I woke up today and I had nothing to say, nor to write.
Nothing else I was going to post, because to say the truth I am not even sure why I even bother.
But then I started thinking about the fact that one day I will be somewhere else.
And these few words will be my crumble signs that I leave behind.

My toughs and feelings can stay here far beyond the day I breath my last air
For my son and my children of light that need to find me somwhere,
I will be here, day after day in each word and I will too live with hem.
Because I know how it is, to look for someone in the leftovers of memories

To hold on to fantasies and make up stories to find a loved one.
My children of light and my son will not have to make up stories because I am here.
I will be here, even if I have nothing to write.

Viridiana B

MYSELF

Rolling like a stone
Never in the same place,
Where is God now?
I seem to be displaced.

Lift me up like a star,
Rock my world with your light.
There is nowhere I really want to be
other than here with myself and I.

So where is God?
Is he a star?
Is he the shine that lights my night?
Perhaps, and just perhaps
He is all those things
And the most beautiful form of myself inside.

Viridiana Bordes (2004)

Proof ..... If only I could say it

Look into the bright eyes,
Proof that there is more beyond that smile;
A reminder from across the sky
Maybe it is time we take you for a ride.

Hidden faces surround you now,
Just know yourself and you will find;
That the love around you can not leave
Only you can turn your back.

And if you are drowning guess who will dry your back,
That is the question that none asks;
The answer may come across to cold
Because to dry your back, you see there, it is only you.

Just keep on looking through your eyes
Let the message in through the light,
See the vanished fear and shame through the mirror
Grab yourself and get your life
Change your role and don't go back.

Viridiana B