The experiment gone wrong

I need to stop, I need help, please take me, take my breath, and give my years to whomever wants to continue to play, because I dont, I am done feeling and I have nothing to lose now, I do more damage on those that I love by every second I stay.

I am a horrible experiment gone awry, can we reset? Can your write your conclusions and dispose of me? Because I was supposed to be done by now and I have nothing, I have done nothing, and the fire coming out of my breath is burning everything I touch, I am a danger for everything around me, so please, disengage and dispose of me, I am done, shred my soul so I am emptiness for eternity, shred my spirit to my pain nurtures the soil of your future props.

Take me to where I belong, to nothingness and darkness, take me please, stop playing like a toy with me, I know I am not special and I have never been. I am just one more so take your notes and pull the plug, have mercy one last time, free me from this senseless time.

Part 2 of 3

The pain of the Moon

I feel and I do too much, for even if the leaf falls the rumble disturbs my very core.
I am in the middle of a garden and I cant help feel the burst, I am a combustion a second from happening. And the voice tells me to calm down, to channel from earth to sky just how she taught me, but I am beyond practicing, I am at the end of my road.

There is a new invitation every day, and every day I cant find the strength to commit, to persevere, to purposefully and gradually release the fire that is burning a hole inside of me.

If it's all a dream, why cant I wake up? I am done, I've been born I've grown, I've shopped, I've reproduced, so can I die now? Can I go? Why would you want me here? Why would you show me the myst and then throw me out of my own home? Not only did I lose my wings, my shield and my sword and was pushed to live like a mortal, now you make me a bomb? Why?! And what is worst, is that you have made me a bomb and hid the trigger from my thumb.

Where is my magic? where is my temple? Why do I keep taking away my dreams? and what else do you want from me? Don't you think I've seen I am not the only one? I dont carry the message alone, and the cause is beyond my vision now, so why am I still here? I have no mission, no wings, no temple, no home, no shield, no sword, no purpose, just a hole and a bomb. What do you want to blow up? Why me? What did I destroyed that you have made sure I lose everything, and Now you go for my mind, when will it be enough? for you to allow me to just go and join the darkness of my soul?

Part 1 of 3

Labels out of the pantry and into the 3D

When we think of labels, what do we think of? Some might say, we mean a tool to learn, and others will say its tool to organize, others will say its a tool to identify. In essence, we can say that they are useful, that they have been able to withstand the test of time, and to this date, a world without labels will just fall off the orbit in more ways than one. The evolution of labels has penetrated the digital divide, programs would collapse if all of the sudden we decided that labels were no longer appropriate.

So what is the debate about labels, in society? The labels that we put ourselves must in theory serve a purpose, but it is important then that we are aware of this so we can use it to our own advantage. That is why first impressions are crucial, because we do not know in what mode are the people outside our world labeling us. Yet the world confuse us by dividing us, in those that think labels are good and go by them, and those that think labels are bad and go against norm in general to prove a point, reinforcing the point of the others. Because the reality is not in which side is right or wrong. The solution is in the truths that those two positions share in common. There is the potential for peace. Yet to those that the division is evident can use this to their advantage, or they can observe, get out the divide and be able to see a different point of view and be an example of a life outside the divide. Not by proclamation but by just living their life outside the divide. Interacting with those in both sides, breaking the paradigm. Disruptive that do not create chaos, rather they offer an option outside the divide.

Labels then, are just a topic, like labels, there are many ideas that divide us, but there are also alternatives, and often the alternative is a personal choice of tolerance and responsibility of the actions that our ideas commit us to.

Window of Powerful Transition

Its been a while since I last wrote, or published a PODCAST but soon I will have hopefully two brand new episodes very promising for me and for my path.

There is a new season starting and every layer of my being feels it. Its a moment to really be grateful. I have been blessed with many gifts in the last powerful weeks and they have been so subtle but so profound that to the naked eye may be nothing, but for me, its like I have been reborn anew.

I have been moving around with my family since the end of June and its all coming to a stop, to a phase of rest, I think this is the season to gather energy and prepare for the winter, to prepare for the darkness of days, and to conserve the teachings of this summer of 2017 that has been one of the most amazing yet.

In the coming days we have a lot of things happening... at least me, tomorrow there is a town celebration of the town where part of my family is from, and it is also my 33rd birthday (a very meaningful year for me) and a new moon, with a cherry on top which is the eclipse in this side of the hemisphere on the next day. Its amazing! Its like the Universe is screaming to me that its the new birth I have foreseen for so long. I am humble at the sight of the Universe, at the elements, at the Goddess, at darkness, at shadows, at the light.

For my my 33rd birthday is about mastery, and I have set myself earlier this year to decide what I was going to Master? I came up with a long list, and I have started my way... but the first of them, was to Master myself, one of the hardest things I have set myself to do. And even though I am not 100% there yet (and who knows if I ever will be at 100%) I am closer than I have ever had, and that has opened the doors to Master all the other things in my list, or at least to be in the way. This year hence is the year in which I take full responsibility of my path, and trust fully in the guidance within, the one that comes from the four corners of the universe and beyond.

The Eclipse this year is to me a powerful transmutation tool, and the effects extend beyond the days to come. I still remember the first eclipse I witnessed, I was 6 or 7 years old and I was humbled, questions and enigmas started silently to be fed inside of me, and now I see the union of the sun and the moon as a magical pass that we get to witness, a union a mathematical precision that is happening clockwork, while we are travelling through space at 300 kilometers per second or so. Its just beyond patterns, its a symphony. A day that will live in my code for as long as I am light.

Thank you

Life as we know it

There are times in life when you simply do not remember anything about yourself. When everything seems a play, a stage and you feel just like Truman in the Truman show. Where everyone knows except you, and usually the first instinct is to go back to a place in your past where you perceived yourself as safe and sound, but automatically that idea is refuted because if everything is a stage, then that place that you so long seek is also a non existent place, it is rather a memory of the illusion of being safe.

I used to feel like that a lot, and I still do sometimes, when I just want silence and to be embraced by the darkness, for the darkness expects nothing of me, and it can show me a glimpse of memory of who am I really. Before I embraced the darkness, I was terrified by it, It made me feel evil, and as if there was something wrong with me, for the darkness is where we dont go, specially when we are young, specially when the people around you are so afraid you will be lost.

When I speak of the darkness I do not mean an evil place, I mean a place under the earth where all seeds rest before they sprout. I refer to it, as my good friend Lily reminded me... a womb where a baby is comforted for the first 9 months, where the baby becomes.

I have learned that the only way to step through the stages of life when the darkness makes a personal invitation to you, is to stand on truths. I call them my lily-pads, for they grow out of the mud, but they grow so that I can step on them, and so I can be reminded of my own truth. Once I start recognizing truth, it is easy to go back and feel good about your life, because even though much of the surface is an illusion, you start to recognize the truths of your growth, and every time you do that it makes a little bit more sense. It clears the path in front of you, and behind you.

I recently talked to a cousin of mine, Max, and we were talking about how sometimes we dont remember what causes us to feel certain ways. Trying to make a point I digged in to my past, and I found a jewel, a pearl, a gift of understanding. And it has brought to me a whole new idea that maybe, just maybe ... I designed this just this way. This brings about a theory of the evolution of man's consciousness that as I think of it, it sounds a lot of what the Buddha talked about.

Christianity has paved the way for reincarnation in more ways than one, hence positioning itself out there with Hinduism as an old religion, with truth in the midst of the stories designed to control the masses. So reincarnation is real, and karma is real, and the soul journey is real, where past experiences design future experiences until lessons are learned. The Buddha spoke of the wheel of Karma and how we were subject to it, until we would realize our Dharma and escape the wheel. Jesus spoke of the kingdom of God to be a kingdom for those that follow him. Jesus is the way, the Tao, the Dharma, and the kingdom of God is the escape from the wheel.

If this is truth, then there are two types of reincarnation (Probably way many more) but that I can see, or start to see. One is the one where you are inside the wheel, and you just go through the soul journey, until you have learned the lessons that need to be learned to ascend or in other words to be worthy of the kingdom of God, or through experiences needed to neutralize Karma. There are contracts, soul groups and such that as they become more aware as souls, they continue to travel together to go through it all over again. However these souls still are in training the consciousness in expansion, they are no less nor more, they just are playing the programs that they need to play to rise their awareness of who they are.

Then there is the second sort of reincarnation, which is deliberately, to your own design, a last test if you will. One that is designed in such an exact way, a clock work. There is no recipe for everyone is different, but the ultimate goal is the same, to go in one last time, to do it all over again, and this time, to escape the game completely, to join source. There is a chance to believe that there may be a group as well, a study group that are in the same stage and that they all decided to come through one more time or that they come at it alone. It doesn't matter, all that matters is that the design is perfect, and it makes sense, it has specific commands to keep you on track, as if you thought about all the shiny things that will distract you, and it keeps you, until you can remember. Yet remembering is only the first step, then you must take the reign of your Dharma once more, continue the study, once more, and get out of the Karma that you had to create in order to come again. But if everything goes well, at the end you will be one with source, and the mission will be complete.

This understanding humbles me, for I know nothing about anybody else's journey. I know not what stage they are in, For all I know they are Masters that designed their life as they did for a reason, maybe as a favor for humanity. For all I know these sleeping giants are just waiting for us to be ready.

My comitment

The way I see it, one of the greatest fears I have had in my life has been the ability to commit, some may argue that his was because of my father did not commit to me, and those people may be partially right, however it is not only my father that showed me how to not commit, if anything his "on the face" lack of commitment was the best lighting that made clear the fact that people on earth have trouble committing. And I say people of earth, because I can only imagine that other entities, in higher realms, are committed to their existence, hence their longevity and their purpose on a large scale.

And just for the record, I dont believe in other life forms.... I KNOW... that there are countless of other beings that have been around for eons, and their existence permeates every layer of the known and unknown universes. There are beings in lower realms of existence, and also beings in higher realms of existence and this is truth.

But today, I am not expanding on other lives, I am expanding on my life and my insight, why? Because as above so below baby!!! If you are in the search for meaning, and truth, you know that the truth lays within you, and that you just have to scratch the surface of your own being to understand the macro and then... well you know the drill "How far down the rabbit hole you want to go?"

Back to commitment... I observe and people have lost their commitment, we go through life thinking that none can tie us down, because we are free... but are we really free or are we cowards and we can not commit, not to other, and not to ourselves, but to our purpose.

It is from the commitment to a purpose that the WORD gains power, and that the actions have meaning, when an ordinary person becomes a wizard, an architect of their own reality, an artist of their life.

It is my understanding that before we arrive, we know our mission, but it is only half of the mission, during our lives, not only must we remember the mission, but complete it and evolve.

Commitment to your purpose, once you find it... or at least when you can see the path, that may lead you to new views, new missions, new wonders... is a step that we must find.

Today, I can not claim that I have found my purpose in life, but I can say that I see the path in front of me, and I recognize it, because it feels like in my life... everything that has ever had meaning, everything that has left a print in my field, was a clue... a clue of the spiral I have walked for thousands of years, for within my shared experience lays the heart of a bigger purpose, a bigger being... a being called "humanity" and that is the path I see in front of me... To be the artist, that inspires, that creates, that calls on the eye of the stars and that is invited to savor the immensity of all the possibilities, the one that with a pure heart is called to guard those that need guarding, the one that is called to awaken those that are ready... That is who I aim and aspire to be one day, a representative of humanity in the higher orders of existence, to unlock the magic in me, to see energy in motion, to be energy in motion, to gain knowledge and to make it available to everyone so that they know where they came from, and so they can see the path of their own purpose.

My commitment is to the path of magic, knowledge love and humanity with an open heart, with reverence to the Goddess and God.

In celebration of my quarter of a century

August 21 at 10:07pm

I don't remember for how long I have been searching for meaning in my life. I do not remember how many times I have looked at the night sky searching for an answer for a question I do not know.

The time has gone like water runs through an insignificant leak. It goes drop by drop, seemingly worthless to even be noticed. But every drop falls and doesn't come back, the water that flows through that leak cannot be used again, just like the seconds of my life, the ones that run through without me even saying good bye.

Today I searched again, and realized one very important thing. I thought about why if we were to find out that we are close to die we would be more likely to appreciate life, and every little thing about it, we would find meaning even in despair and in a way we would start to live.

And then I realized that the moment we give up eternal existence to be born we are sentenced to die. Diagnosed with humanity we come to dream and admire the night sky. Does this explain why babies are the angels of this earth? Because they still remember the sentence of death? By living long we forget that this life is just a second before we have to go. How can we not forget about the fragility of life and the importance of experience?

The way I understand it today is that if we gave up eternal existence for a chance to live a couple of tens of years under the sun, this might be a great place to be, the price might be way better than the sacrifice, let's not forget about that.

Viridiana

Introduction to the Next Stage

WELCOME!


I want to take this opportunity to thank you all to visit this BLOG. It is quite a surprise that I actually had the decision to finally create one, and now that I have done it, I realize that is as easy as writing an e-mail, and I write a lot of those on the daily basis.

The title of the Blog is "The Next Stage" why? Because that is what we should all be wondering about, that is what every day is about. Every second, every minute that passes by is just one more step towards that next stage. It is not the next 10 years, but the next.

I would like to share with you a point of view, but more than anything, I would like to practice what my experience has thought me over the years. Some lessons have been learned quite fast, others are still kicking in, and others are for life.

I will then outline the topics for the upcoming weeks, where a new topic will be posted every Friday and open to discussion. Anyone who would like to be featured with a new topic is welcome, just let me know.

TOPICS

07/17/09 – The miracle of being here

07/24/09 – The patters of life

07/31/09 – The laws of my life, the universe and all

08/07/09 – Can I really make it big?

The character of this blog is of a human sentiment, an involvement with our true nature and our place in the universe, a close session to explore our deepest desire, and share, learn, practice and live by the universal truths.

See you this Friday